Well, I'm here :)

Well, I'm here in Draganesti-Olt, Romania!  It's so bittersweet!  I never expected it to be the way it is, but I'm here because I was called here for 3 months.  It's so amazing and great to be back in a place where God did crazy things in my life 6 months ago.  However, it's strange to not have Z-squad with me as I sit in the room where I had my 2 hour long feedbacks with Team Ruach.  I know that I'm not the same girl that was here last time and I know I'm being called to walk that out without fear.  No hesitation, no shame...so God, show me what you have for me here this time around. 

There really hasn't been a whole lot that has happened since being here, but then again I've only been here for 2 days.  There's been a lot of resting!  A lot of down time to think of what God is calling me here for...and I can tell you, it's been a bit overwhelming, but it's time to buckle down to stay focused on those who need love.  I've experienced love in a way I can't express through Jesus Christ, but somehow (through his love) I can express that to those who haven't yet received it.  I don't know if you know the atmosphere of this place, but it's mainly Orthodox.  The area that I'm currently living in is 0.2% Christians as Christians are mocked and called "po-keets" (repenters) if they switch to having a relationship with Christ.  There are so many people here who think that Christianity is just another religion and don't understand the importance of the relationship with Christ-just like the United States.  They don't understand the "love factor."  They don't get it and I can't change their hearts on my own, but I can love them because I've been loved first.  I can show them what I have received and pray for them that they would start to understand why I'm here.  Lord, revival...let it break out! 

God has equipped me to come and speak without fear and shame to believe that a revival can break out of this place.  Those who believe in revival, please start praying for Draganesti-Olt, Romania, because these people are hurting...there's a huge apathy here that needs to change.  I want to see joy on their faces...not downcast expressions that suggest there's no point to life.  THERE'S A POINT TO LIFE!  You, Draganesti-Olt, were created to have purpose.  You were created to love and to be loved.  Receive it!  Know it!  Why don't you get it?  Why can't you see?  What's causing you to be blind to these things?  Oh, that it would be revealed to the missionaries and myself here in these next 3 months.

Please pray alongside us for Draganesti-Olt for eyes to be opened...that Christians just aren't crazy people, but that they are people who are learning how to be loved and from that give love to those who just don't know it.  Please pray that burn-out wouldn't happen.  That everyday we would get our energy from the Truth and from the Master.

Searchlight 101

Since Saturday, I have been in Gainesville, GA spending time with my squad and A-squad for something called Project Searchlight.  PSL has been so great!  I have learned so many things in this last 3 days about what God is calling me to for the future and I can't wait!  It's going to be sooo good!

Some things that God has been doing:

• My lung is HEaled!
• I was told that I possess something that others don't have.  We are all lights, but for some reason I stand out in a crowd.
• Potentially opening up an orphanage?
• Potentially opening up a Bible School within that orphanage?

So these are just some thoughts currently and I know they aren't fully together, but...God is working in some HUGE ways and this week has been challenging in asking me to step out of what I currently know.  But, it's also empowered me to step up and encourage others who don't know anything about their dreams to start looking at their passions and to start "dreaming."

Starting Anew

It's about time, I must say.  It's a time of renewal and starting new.

When I got off The World Race, I felt what some Racers would call "burn-out."  Now, I don't think it was because of ministry. I wouldn't be going to Romania if I was burned out from ministry.  Let's be honest here, if we are burned out by ministry, what's the reason for that?  We are called to do ministry our entire lives.   This may sound a bit cocky, but ministry makes sense for me and my life.  When God called me to do missions work, I was 20 years old.  Since before I was actually following the Lord truly, I had enjoyed investing in lives and trying to help those individuals find meaning for their existence. 

So since ministry wasn't it, what could it be?  I was burned out from trying to do things on my own.  I'll be honest and say I struggle with trying to do and take things into my control.  It is a weakness, but thankfully it's in a process that God is bringing me through.  It's hard, but if I want to become a true Christian willing to endure hardship for His name, I will surrender to His will, not my own.  I will become closer to Him, because He's so good to me.

Just recently God was asking me to recheck my heart with returning to Romania.  He asked me "Rachel, are you going to Romania to do things through your hands or MINE?  Are you surrendering your heart and your life into my plans?"  This happened because I was so focused in my thoughts and was ignoring His.  I want His thoughts, His eyes and His hands for this nation of Romania!  I don't want to see through my eyes, because my eyes can't see what needs Him fully.  They can only see a piece of the puzzle.  I don't want to act out of my so-called love, I want to act out of His.  I want to be His love for a generation that knows nothing about Him, for a people who have been so hurt by others that they don't know how to receive this love that we preach.  But do we live it out?  Do we really appreciate this love that God has for us, because I feel like sometimes we get distracted by doing things out of works and trying to keep ourselves busy, because it's our "Christian Duty." 

I do not want to start Romania this way.  Actually, I refuse to start Romania this way!  I see no point going to a country if I'm solely focused on my agenda and a detailed itinerary of "what-to-do's."  Lord, that you would have your way in my life.  My prayer is that this next week as I prepare to be sent out that I would not worry about what's to come, how I'm going to raise the rest of the support I need, and other things of the such.  If God is calling me to this place for this time, He's going to perfect every single detail.

"Why worry, Rachel?  I have called you to this.  Do you trust me that I know what I'm doing?"

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ivtvLWuMywM&feature=related
*This song hits home to me.*

What to call this...Blessing

Since I've been home, God's been blowing things up out of proportion.  There is not one day that I've been home that I haven't seen some sort of blessing.  I could list all the things that God has done and frankly, I want to, so here we go.  Everyday has had its own blessing ranging from small to HUGE.  Some of those blessings were such as this, seeing support come in from people I really don't know.  I know about these people, but have never met them or have only spend a few days with them.  Other blessings have been God almost rewarding me for being faithful with going on The World Race, which can be another story of how i saw Him change my life.  But since I've been home, I have seen God in my relationships with family, friends, and even those that aren't in those groups.  He knows exactly what I need at the right time and some people may say they are coincedences, but believe me...there's no possible way these things could have happened by chance.

 

This blessing and encounter was what me made sure of God calling me back to Romania.  Tuesday, July 31st I went to Madison for a few appointments and check-ups (good old Central America...)  and afterwards, I decided I would stop by my church to see who all was around.  As I was walking into the church, I ran into one of my really good friends, Jon, which made my day.  But the crazier thing was this...I went into the office looking for my youth pastor and they said he was in a meeting, so I couldn't see him.  So I left the office figuring well I can see him later.  It's no problem...so I got in my car and started to drive out of the parking lot only to see my pastor loading up this car with a bunch of students sitting around next to it.  As I got out of the car, I noticed a Romanian flag on the back window of a van and understood that the youth team was getting ready to go to Romania.  This is funy and awesome, as I was getting ready to talk to Lief, the pastor, he saw me, gave me a hug and started to talk about Romania-where they were going, what they were going to be doing and the works.  He asked me the question of where I would be going and I answered with "Draganesti-Olt."  Lief responded that he knew this guy in the village I would be working in and how esteemed he was by Lief and our church...long story short, he was talking about Raul, the head pastor of the church I'll be working with when I go to Romania! 

 

This is where it gets even stranger.  Lief met Raul last July.  If I hadn't have gone to Training Camp, I would have gone to Romania and met this man.  Either way, it was bound to happen-that is me going to Romania and meeting Raul Costea, the head missionary and pastor there.  It's just crazy the connections that can be made and things happen or are said at the time they are needed to be said.  I think had I heard about Raul before getting to Romania, it wouldn't have made a whole lot of sense to me.  This situation with Lief just made sense.  I don't know how to put it in words and I understand that it might not sound all that big, but it is.  This was probably one of the biggest confirmations I have received from the Lord about having a support system-like my church sending me out.  Honestly, I've been praying for a church to claim me for long-term missions and I think I've got it!  Thank you Blackhawk Church for everything you have done for Draganesti-Olt, including sending money at Christmas to build wells for impoverished villages.

 

 Blackhawk Church, Madison WI                           Hope Church, Draganesti-Olt, Romania

 

I feel like that was my commissioning from my church "to go."  Matthew 28:18-20 says this.  "Then Jesus came to them and said, "All authority in heaven and on earth has been given to me. ¹⁹ Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, ²⁰ and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age."

 

I am being called back out to the nations.  I'm excited, I'm ready and I'm waiting for the rest of my support to come in.  I can't do this without finances.  I have to raise $2,500 preferably by August 18th and I have $1,000 pledged already.  Are you able to help me out?  Are you willing to help me out?  You may not see the results right away, but trust me, God will bless you for your willingness.  He always asks us to be willing and to trust Him in the times and places when it's hard.

 

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 Thank you so much everyone!  You have done so much already and I'm so appreciative of what you have done!